I stumbled upon this on YouTube yesterday. Now let me first say that this is one of the reasons Nathan continually threatens to cancel our internet. Let me warn you that you will cry. The little baby, Ella Rose, was born at just 21 weeks. They could not stop labor and an infection developed. When this mother gave birth to her baby, she knew she had only minutes with her daughter. While my heart was just breaking into pieces, I noticed something. This family was smiling. They weren't focused on anything but enjoying every precious moment with their tiny baby girl. It was just so inspiring how much strength this family had to set aside their mourning to celebrate new life, even if for only 20 minutes. So... if you watch it, make sure you have a tissue! {I could only watch it one time through.}
Ella Rose (Click here to watch)
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Friday, October 30, 2009
News
Good News! I got in with the midwife I was hoping for. She is the one that is in practice with one other midwife and a couple OBGYNs. I will see both midwives, but that is so much better than rotating through five or six doctors. And if I would develop complications I would simply see one of the OBGYNs within the same practice. And being that they are in practice with midwives, I imagine they have a greater respect for what midwives do and believe as far as birth being instinctual and natural. I'm very pleased. I will be sending Dr. Powell a thank you card for all that she has done for us and the support she gave us before IVF.
And if you're up for a good scandal... read this... There is a longer story, but basically John Tully, the other photo staffer at the paper, had his 1st Amendment right challenged by Dow Corning security. While remaining on public property he was detained by Dow Corning Security who called the Midland police. There are a lot of details not published in the article. They claimed it was a Homeland Security issue. Its funny though, because they have an "Overlook Park" over looking the plant. And John was on public property. Anyone could have seen what John was taking pictures of. They just didn't want the public to see the fire... they are usually able to sweep everything under their corporate rug. Corporate America does not get to control the press. This is just a snippet of what happened and how we feel about it... but read through the comments. Its always interesting to see what people have to say about stuff like this.
And if you're up for a good scandal... read this... There is a longer story, but basically John Tully, the other photo staffer at the paper, had his 1st Amendment right challenged by Dow Corning security. While remaining on public property he was detained by Dow Corning Security who called the Midland police. There are a lot of details not published in the article. They claimed it was a Homeland Security issue. Its funny though, because they have an "Overlook Park" over looking the plant. And John was on public property. Anyone could have seen what John was taking pictures of. They just didn't want the public to see the fire... they are usually able to sweep everything under their corporate rug. Corporate America does not get to control the press. This is just a snippet of what happened and how we feel about it... but read through the comments. Its always interesting to see what people have to say about stuff like this.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
The Lost One
Yes I know this is my third post in one day. Its called being unemployed.
Its normal for new fathers and mothers-to-be to have fears about parenthood, about pregnancy, about birth, etc. It takes some parents nine months to get used to the idea. Nathan and I have not experienced that. We've been ready and are fully excited. That's not to say we won't have some anxiety at some point. But we are more joyful than fearful. But Nathan does have one fear. One thing about this pregnancy that worries him. What is that you ask? That I will go into labor or be in labor during the LOST series finale. The series finale is set to end May 23 (according to the inter-web), just twelve days before my due date. Now in all seriousness, that probably won't happen. But Nathan does not know the exact date of the series finale, only that it is close to our due date. So I'll certainly be having some fun telling Nathan that the finale will be much closer to my due date for dramatic effect. (Now you'd think with Tivo this wouldn't even be an issue... but what can I say??)
Now of course, that's mostly a joke. But in all honesty, since we're still not close to having the right girl's name... I have a strong suspicion that our girl's name will be inspired by Lost. Is that sad? There are some beautiful names. Clare, Sun, Juliet, Charlotte, Penelope aka Penny, Kate... This would make Nathan very happy. (Hm. And I did tell Nathan its now up to him to find a name for our daughter, should the baby be a girl... so right there may be the top six.)
Like I said before... I blame unemployment and Nathan's 2-10 shift for this kind of silly post.
Its normal for new fathers and mothers-to-be to have fears about parenthood, about pregnancy, about birth, etc. It takes some parents nine months to get used to the idea. Nathan and I have not experienced that. We've been ready and are fully excited. That's not to say we won't have some anxiety at some point. But we are more joyful than fearful. But Nathan does have one fear. One thing about this pregnancy that worries him. What is that you ask? That I will go into labor or be in labor during the LOST series finale. The series finale is set to end May 23 (according to the inter-web), just twelve days before my due date. Now in all seriousness, that probably won't happen. But Nathan does not know the exact date of the series finale, only that it is close to our due date. So I'll certainly be having some fun telling Nathan that the finale will be much closer to my due date for dramatic effect. (Now you'd think with Tivo this wouldn't even be an issue... but what can I say??)
Now of course, that's mostly a joke. But in all honesty, since we're still not close to having the right girl's name... I have a strong suspicion that our girl's name will be inspired by Lost. Is that sad? There are some beautiful names. Clare, Sun, Juliet, Charlotte, Penelope aka Penny, Kate... This would make Nathan very happy. (Hm. And I did tell Nathan its now up to him to find a name for our daughter, should the baby be a girl... so right there may be the top six.)
Like I said before... I blame unemployment and Nathan's 2-10 shift for this kind of silly post.
I do want to clarify one thing. Conceiving through IVF does not automatically make me high risk. Obviously, midwives do not work with high risk pregnancies. Many IVF patients do have high risk pregnancies, but it depends on the infertility problem. Women with endometriosis or other problems will have high risk pregnancies after IVF. My infertility cause does not make me high risk at all.
I'm trying to get in with a midwife who works at a practice affiliated with our local hospital. There are a couple midwives and then regular OBGYNs in case the pregnancy would become high risk or face complications. This is kind of an ideal situation having both within the same practice.
We shall see.
I'm trying to get in with a midwife who works at a practice affiliated with our local hospital. There are a couple midwives and then regular OBGYNs in case the pregnancy would become high risk or face complications. This is kind of an ideal situation having both within the same practice.
We shall see.
Midwifery
This week I watched a documentary I had been wanting to watch for a while, The Business of Being Born by Ricki Lake. I also read Ricki Lake's book that kind of goes hand in hand with her film. Both were very, very good.
*Another disclaimer... I am making no judgement on women who used a regular OBGYN or had any kind of medical intervention what so ever. I'm just expressing my thoughts on my own personal journey. It is a very personal decision that we each must make for ourself based on what is best for our own families*
I had always been attracted to the thought of a midwife. And after watching the film, it really confirmed this thought. The most important thing being midwives, who are still highly educated and trained, is they have a greater trust and respect for the bodies own natural ability to birth. Where as doctors fix problems. They are not accustomed to letting the body work naturally.
Not being able to conceive naturally was difficult to accept. The conception of our baby was highly controlled, very medical, and obviously required intense intervention. I think that is the reason, I so strongly want the pregnancy and birth of our baby to be as natural as possible.
*Another disclaimer... I also understand that 'things' happen. The best plans for a natural birth can end in a c-section... and in the end its most important that mom and baby are healthy. So while I may be planning one thing, I also understand the unforeseen happens. Believe me, I am a realist these days.*
However, I wasn't ready to say, after Dr. Shamma I'll be seeing a midwife. The reason being Dr. Powell. She was such a huge blessing in finding the root of our infertility. When we found out the IVF was going to be our only option, she looked me in the eye and said, "I will deliver your baby." How great would it be to truly have her delivery this baby. But, she is also a surgeon. She is a doctor who is trained to intervene and fix things, sometimes maybe when they aren't really broken. I thought that if I can express to her how important it is to me to have the best chance at a natural childbirth, then maybe she'd understand and be slower to intervene. But even then, hospitals often say you can have whatever kind of birth you want, including a water birth, but one thing leads to another, people start pushing you one way, and your desires are out the window.
I will be released from Dr. Shamma in about three weeks. So I went ahead and called Dr. Powell's office to get on the schedule for my first appointment with her. I was not pleased. The receptionist explained to me that my first two visits will be with these two different people. Then after that I'll be rotated throughout all the doctors for the following appointments. That way who ever is there to deliver won't be a stranger. Um that is not OK with me. And that will only increase the odds of intervention. Sure, Dr. Powell and I might be on the same page, but that doesn't mean the other three or four doctors are. This did not sit well with me.
The next step was to call our insurance company and get a run down of the maternity services covered. What do you know? Midwife services are covered the very same as OBGYN maternity services. This makes me happy. Now don't think that I am instantly thinking about doing a home birth. We'll have to see how the pregnancy goes. But having a midwife delivering in the hospital means that I'd still have the opportunity to birth the way and in the environment I choose, including in the water.
Now we still have 31 weeks and so much depends on how things go with the pregnancy. I may hit 30 weeks and realize I don't have a choice, but to see an OBGYN and deliver in a hospital. But at this point, I would like to proceed with a midwife. I want to have a trust and relationship with the ONE person who will be attending my birth.
Fortunately and surprisingly, Midland, Saginaw, and Bay City have several great midwives with great reputations who have attended massive number of births.
*Another disclaimer... I am making no judgement on women who used a regular OBGYN or had any kind of medical intervention what so ever. I'm just expressing my thoughts on my own personal journey. It is a very personal decision that we each must make for ourself based on what is best for our own families*
I had always been attracted to the thought of a midwife. And after watching the film, it really confirmed this thought. The most important thing being midwives, who are still highly educated and trained, is they have a greater trust and respect for the bodies own natural ability to birth. Where as doctors fix problems. They are not accustomed to letting the body work naturally.
Not being able to conceive naturally was difficult to accept. The conception of our baby was highly controlled, very medical, and obviously required intense intervention. I think that is the reason, I so strongly want the pregnancy and birth of our baby to be as natural as possible.
*Another disclaimer... I also understand that 'things' happen. The best plans for a natural birth can end in a c-section... and in the end its most important that mom and baby are healthy. So while I may be planning one thing, I also understand the unforeseen happens. Believe me, I am a realist these days.*
However, I wasn't ready to say, after Dr. Shamma I'll be seeing a midwife. The reason being Dr. Powell. She was such a huge blessing in finding the root of our infertility. When we found out the IVF was going to be our only option, she looked me in the eye and said, "I will deliver your baby." How great would it be to truly have her delivery this baby. But, she is also a surgeon. She is a doctor who is trained to intervene and fix things, sometimes maybe when they aren't really broken. I thought that if I can express to her how important it is to me to have the best chance at a natural childbirth, then maybe she'd understand and be slower to intervene. But even then, hospitals often say you can have whatever kind of birth you want, including a water birth, but one thing leads to another, people start pushing you one way, and your desires are out the window.
I will be released from Dr. Shamma in about three weeks. So I went ahead and called Dr. Powell's office to get on the schedule for my first appointment with her. I was not pleased. The receptionist explained to me that my first two visits will be with these two different people. Then after that I'll be rotated throughout all the doctors for the following appointments. That way who ever is there to deliver won't be a stranger. Um that is not OK with me. And that will only increase the odds of intervention. Sure, Dr. Powell and I might be on the same page, but that doesn't mean the other three or four doctors are. This did not sit well with me.
The next step was to call our insurance company and get a run down of the maternity services covered. What do you know? Midwife services are covered the very same as OBGYN maternity services. This makes me happy. Now don't think that I am instantly thinking about doing a home birth. We'll have to see how the pregnancy goes. But having a midwife delivering in the hospital means that I'd still have the opportunity to birth the way and in the environment I choose, including in the water.
Now we still have 31 weeks and so much depends on how things go with the pregnancy. I may hit 30 weeks and realize I don't have a choice, but to see an OBGYN and deliver in a hospital. But at this point, I would like to proceed with a midwife. I want to have a trust and relationship with the ONE person who will be attending my birth.
Fortunately and surprisingly, Midland, Saginaw, and Bay City have several great midwives with great reputations who have attended massive number of births.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
This is a Blog Post
I think I can say with about 99.9% certainty that I will not be getting the H1N1 vaccine or the seasonal vaccine. I will be praying and purelling like crazy... but we strongly feel it is the right decision for our family. My friend Angie, also pregnant, has also decided not to. Having two other pregnant friends who feel the same way we do gives me a sense of validation.
I also think that we're going to reach the peak of it very soon. If as many people have had it as "they" say (who now have naturally created antibodies against it) and the vaccines are now going out... surely we'll see a decline. I really don't think this is going to last through the winter. {That may not be scientific, more Kelly-logic but I really think we're going to see it peak very soon}
And I was wrong about finding the perfect girl's name. We have a decent enough list to satisfy me. I'm honestly, just tired of thinking about it. Maybe God will give me the name in a dream... that would be cool. But I really, really, really think its a boy and that's why no girl's names sound right or seem to fit.
Not much new pregnancy wise to report. Still feeling great! {Did I mention how much I love this baby for not making its momma sick?! Keep up the great work BABY!!}
I also think that we're going to reach the peak of it very soon. If as many people have had it as "they" say (who now have naturally created antibodies against it) and the vaccines are now going out... surely we'll see a decline. I really don't think this is going to last through the winter. {That may not be scientific, more Kelly-logic but I really think we're going to see it peak very soon}
And I was wrong about finding the perfect girl's name. We have a decent enough list to satisfy me. I'm honestly, just tired of thinking about it. Maybe God will give me the name in a dream... that would be cool. But I really, really, really think its a boy and that's why no girl's names sound right or seem to fit.
Not much new pregnancy wise to report. Still feeling great! {Did I mention how much I love this baby for not making its momma sick?! Keep up the great work BABY!!}
Monday, October 26, 2009
8 Weeks 4 Days
Today's ultrasound went well. Dr. Shamma was very happy with how things looked. He used the words "perfect" and "gorgeous." And we could see the arm and leg buds which was neat. Unfortunately they forgot to give me pictures. :( But hearing and seeing how perfect everything looked... that's enough to go on in my book!
And I get to stop the shots!!!! Hallelujah!! I still have to take progesterone, but in a different form. It's still not pill form, but anything is better than injections. We are officially retiring the needles and it feels good.
I asked Dr. Shamma about the H1N1 vaccine. Of course, he said I should get it if I can find it in the proper form (injection without thimerosal) but I'm still not convinced. He said we don't know the potential effects on the baby. He said he would be giving it to his family and staff, but none of them are pregnant. I'm not concerned about its effect on normal adults. Its the unknown effects on the fetus that have me in question. It's definitely a very personal dilemma. My solution is to move to the Virgin Islands where the Swine Flu is not a problem, but I guess that isn't the most logical solution. Honestly, I'd rather look crazy and wear a mask out in public rather than get the vaccine.
But, the most important thing right now is that the baby is developing right on track! Praise God!
And I get to stop the shots!!!! Hallelujah!! I still have to take progesterone, but in a different form. It's still not pill form, but anything is better than injections. We are officially retiring the needles and it feels good.
I asked Dr. Shamma about the H1N1 vaccine. Of course, he said I should get it if I can find it in the proper form (injection without thimerosal) but I'm still not convinced. He said we don't know the potential effects on the baby. He said he would be giving it to his family and staff, but none of them are pregnant. I'm not concerned about its effect on normal adults. Its the unknown effects on the fetus that have me in question. It's definitely a very personal dilemma. My solution is to move to the Virgin Islands where the Swine Flu is not a problem, but I guess that isn't the most logical solution. Honestly, I'd rather look crazy and wear a mask out in public rather than get the vaccine.
But, the most important thing right now is that the baby is developing right on track! Praise God!
Saturday, October 24, 2009
H1N1
I've debated whether or not to blog about this subject in detail, but I am. I am about 98% sure I will NOT be getting the seasonal or H1N1 flu vaccines. I left 2% in there leaving room in case Dr. Shamma some how convinces me otherwise, which I think will be highly unlikely.
Now here's my disclaimer *This is a personal decision everyone must make for themselves based on their own risk factors and personal beliefs. I am not judging anyone who disagrees with me or has gotten the vaccines. I am simply stating my thoughts and beliefs on the subject.*
I'm not sure where to begin here. I'll start with this. I stopped watching the news on a regular basis a while ago because I got flat out sick of everything being sensationalized and all the "experts" they had making speculations without any accountability. And I think that is what is happening with the influenza "pandemic." The government gave the pharmaceutical companies massive amounts of money to produce the H1N1 vaccine. It was undoubtedly rushed, which means the testing was also rushed with limited testing on pregnant women. And there is no data on any potential long term effects on a fetus. The local Health Department here held a thing for pregnant women to get both their seasonal flu and H1N1 vaccines together, which has not been studied. I know that pregnant women's immune systems are more vulnerable, so doesn't it seem obvious that maybe giving two flu vaccines at the same time might not be such a good idea. There is also fear that the H1N1 will mutate into something worse which is hasn't. It remains mild. Yes, there have been deaths and complications as with any illness. But do we know the circumstances of each case. How long did they wait before seeking treatment. Did they have other factors that made them more vulnerable to complications? We don't know. That is the over riding theme in all of this. We don't know. There is not enough information. And how often is the medical community split on something. I'm not saying they are always right, but they are almost always united. With this vaccine, they are not.
And we have seen the deterioration in our health care because doctors are practicing medicine based on fear, on what if's. That is what is happening here. The news media is causing extra fear, causing us to turn to our doctors who are afraid to tell us not to get it... because what if they say don't and then we get the flu and complications arise?!
I have also heard of so many people who end up more sick after their vaccinated than they ever were before. I have never had the flu or a flu vaccine. Pre-pregnancy I had a very healthy immune system. I know now that I am pregnant, my immune system is more vulnerable, but I still have faith in my immune system that God masterfully created us with. And of course, I am taking steps to keep healthy like drinking water, getting extra Vitamin C, washing my hands like crazy, and using hand sanitizer like a mad woman when I'm not able to properly wash my hands. I have also been avoiding the grocery during peak times. And in general, I stay out of public unless there's a need. And because we are fortunate to have good health insurance, there is no reason to hesitate going to the doctor at the first sign of illness to seek treatment.
Now I know not everyone can avoid public. I have a friend who is also pregnant who works in a school. She basically works in a flu petri dish. She has also had the flu and pneumonia in the past. Her situation is different from mine. Her risk factors are much greater than mine. She actually did get both flu vaccines just this week which, for her, was probably the right decision.
So that pretty much sums it up for me. As I said, I will talk to Dr. Shamma about it on Monday, but its very unlikely that he'll change my mind. And in the meantime, I'll be praying everyday that God keeps me and our baby healthy and far away from the flu.
Now here's my disclaimer *This is a personal decision everyone must make for themselves based on their own risk factors and personal beliefs. I am not judging anyone who disagrees with me or has gotten the vaccines. I am simply stating my thoughts and beliefs on the subject.*
I'm not sure where to begin here. I'll start with this. I stopped watching the news on a regular basis a while ago because I got flat out sick of everything being sensationalized and all the "experts" they had making speculations without any accountability. And I think that is what is happening with the influenza "pandemic." The government gave the pharmaceutical companies massive amounts of money to produce the H1N1 vaccine. It was undoubtedly rushed, which means the testing was also rushed with limited testing on pregnant women. And there is no data on any potential long term effects on a fetus. The local Health Department here held a thing for pregnant women to get both their seasonal flu and H1N1 vaccines together, which has not been studied. I know that pregnant women's immune systems are more vulnerable, so doesn't it seem obvious that maybe giving two flu vaccines at the same time might not be such a good idea. There is also fear that the H1N1 will mutate into something worse which is hasn't. It remains mild. Yes, there have been deaths and complications as with any illness. But do we know the circumstances of each case. How long did they wait before seeking treatment. Did they have other factors that made them more vulnerable to complications? We don't know. That is the over riding theme in all of this. We don't know. There is not enough information. And how often is the medical community split on something. I'm not saying they are always right, but they are almost always united. With this vaccine, they are not.
And we have seen the deterioration in our health care because doctors are practicing medicine based on fear, on what if's. That is what is happening here. The news media is causing extra fear, causing us to turn to our doctors who are afraid to tell us not to get it... because what if they say don't and then we get the flu and complications arise?!
I have also heard of so many people who end up more sick after their vaccinated than they ever were before. I have never had the flu or a flu vaccine. Pre-pregnancy I had a very healthy immune system. I know now that I am pregnant, my immune system is more vulnerable, but I still have faith in my immune system that God masterfully created us with. And of course, I am taking steps to keep healthy like drinking water, getting extra Vitamin C, washing my hands like crazy, and using hand sanitizer like a mad woman when I'm not able to properly wash my hands. I have also been avoiding the grocery during peak times. And in general, I stay out of public unless there's a need. And because we are fortunate to have good health insurance, there is no reason to hesitate going to the doctor at the first sign of illness to seek treatment.
Now I know not everyone can avoid public. I have a friend who is also pregnant who works in a school. She basically works in a flu petri dish. She has also had the flu and pneumonia in the past. Her situation is different from mine. Her risk factors are much greater than mine. She actually did get both flu vaccines just this week which, for her, was probably the right decision.
So that pretty much sums it up for me. As I said, I will talk to Dr. Shamma about it on Monday, but its very unlikely that he'll change my mind. And in the meantime, I'll be praying everyday that God keeps me and our baby healthy and far away from the flu.
Friday, October 23, 2009
The ONE
You're never going to believe it! I finally found it. The perfect girls name. I know I said in a post or two ago that we had some more good names to add to the short list... but tonight I found the one. I have never felt more connected to a name. It actually gave me butterflies. It is simply beautiful. I still plan on taking two names for each gender with me until I see our baby, but I am 99% sure this is it. And of course, Nathan also loves the name! While I won't be sharing this name until after the baby's born and of course, if its a girl, I'll give you one clue about the current top two names. They both start with M's. Feel free to guess, though!
And to Catherine... I promise its not your name! :)
And to Catherine... I promise its not your name! :)
Definitely Feeling Pregnant
Yesterday was another good day, not nearly as tired as the day before. I am actually starting to feel pregnant, not just because of the fatigue, but physically. I can feel my uterus is larger, supposedly the size of a grapefruit. It's a similar feeling when my ovaries were in enlarged, which they are still not completely down to size. Sometimes I get up or twist too fast and can feel a slight twinge reminding me not to do that. I'm still feeling the cramps as I have for the past six weeks but they are much, much lighter. I just feel pregnant. And of course there are a couple other things that make me feel pregnant, but I'll spare you those details. It's a good feeling though, especially since there is no nausea.
And in naming news... Emily is a name I adore. It topped my list for a couple days. But I just cannot bring myself to give my child a name that was number one on the name charts for twelve years straight! There are a lot of Emily's in this world. So it was back to the naming books. While we have a pretty solid list of names we like, I think there are a couple names that are really starting to pull ahead. Of course I'm not going to tell you (remember... I like the element of surprise) but this makes me very happy.
I've really been trying to focus on keeping stress levels low, although that has been difficult. It seems like every single day there is a new and different stressor. One day it was whether or not to get the H1N1 vaccine (currently leaning towards not but will be talking to my doctor about it on Monday.) Another day it was my job situation (lack there of...) Another day it was stupid unemployment that doesn't use my highest wages from the employer who "laid me off" so kindly (not fair!) Another day it was Nathan's job situation (working ten to twenty hours of free overtime a week are not going to fly with me after the baby is here!!) I know so much of that is just life, but I feel like if we were in a better, more settle-able situation a few of these stressors would be obsolete. But we are actively praying and trying to trust God in the details of our life so that if a change needs to be made, we'll see it... or see how to make our current situation work.
And in naming news... Emily is a name I adore. It topped my list for a couple days. But I just cannot bring myself to give my child a name that was number one on the name charts for twelve years straight! There are a lot of Emily's in this world. So it was back to the naming books. While we have a pretty solid list of names we like, I think there are a couple names that are really starting to pull ahead. Of course I'm not going to tell you (remember... I like the element of surprise) but this makes me very happy.
I've really been trying to focus on keeping stress levels low, although that has been difficult. It seems like every single day there is a new and different stressor. One day it was whether or not to get the H1N1 vaccine (currently leaning towards not but will be talking to my doctor about it on Monday.) Another day it was my job situation (lack there of...) Another day it was stupid unemployment that doesn't use my highest wages from the employer who "laid me off" so kindly (not fair!) Another day it was Nathan's job situation (working ten to twenty hours of free overtime a week are not going to fly with me after the baby is here!!) I know so much of that is just life, but I feel like if we were in a better, more settle-able situation a few of these stressors would be obsolete. But we are actively praying and trying to trust God in the details of our life so that if a change needs to be made, we'll see it... or see how to make our current situation work.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Feeling Pregnant
Today was an exhausting day. Why? No reason. I was just so very tired. I fell asleep on the couch for a few minutes and decided to go get in bed and take a proper nap. I did. And woke up... still so tired. Its definitely the most tired of felt so far during the pregnancy. And I also experienced my first hint of nausea. And when I say hint, I mean hint. It literally lasted for about ten minutes. I hadn't started dinner yet, so I'm not sure what caused it, but it left as quickly as it came. Still no complaints though. I think having gone through what we have... I'm able to embrace all things pregnancy related. Now... if I end up camping out in the bathroom I don't know if that will get much of an embrace. Oh and the indigestion now comes after I eat or drink pretty much anything. But again, not complaining just informing. :)
And as far as the girl's names... I've chilled out a bit. We have added a couple new names to the list, but I think more than anything I'm just convinced it's a boy. Let's just say if it is a girl... it'll be quite a shock.
And as far as the girl's names... I've chilled out a bit. We have added a couple new names to the list, but I think more than anything I'm just convinced it's a boy. Let's just say if it is a girl... it'll be quite a shock.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
WV
Nathan and I decided to skip town and head back to WV for a short/long weekend. His parents were going to come visit us, but with his grandma, its easier for us to go to them (for now!) We had a wonderful weekend. There's something so comforting about the rolling mountains. We always get such a kick at the constant up and down and round and round of the roads. It reminds us why we find snow driving in Michigan so easy... because we learned to drive in the snow in WV. And of course we continued the our tradition when we cross into WV; we play Country Roads by John Denver and sing along very loudly... at least two full times through. And the leaves couldn't have been more beautiful. But even more important than the terrain, we had a wonderful time on Sunday with family. Nathan's brother and his family and his sister and her family joined us for lunch at Nathan's parent's house. Our nieces and nephews are all growing too fast. The nieces were both just over a year old when Nathan and I began dating, the two youngest nephews were not even born yet, and the two oldest nephews were about 8 and 9 years old. Now... the girls are in 6th grade... the two youngest nephews are getting so big and smart (I think in 2nd and 4th grade)... one nephew is a senior in high school and the other a freshman in college. I'm still confused how all that happened. Is my little growing baby also going to grow up that fast?????
In baby news... not much to report. I'll be eight weeks on Thursday and still not a hint of nausea (knock on wood!) The IVF drugs caused major, rapid hormone changes. I read and was told of all the horrible things they'd do to me. Yet I felt great and normal (except during the hyper stimulation.) So I think my body must handle hormone changes fairly well. I do hope this continues. And I have found myself talking to the baby more and more, which is still kind of funny since there's not even a bump to talk to. I go back to the Dr on Monday for more blood work and another ultrasound. I'm definitely looking forward to seeing the baby again and get the reassurance, again, that the baby is still growing and developing perfectly.
In baby news... not much to report. I'll be eight weeks on Thursday and still not a hint of nausea (knock on wood!) The IVF drugs caused major, rapid hormone changes. I read and was told of all the horrible things they'd do to me. Yet I felt great and normal (except during the hyper stimulation.) So I think my body must handle hormone changes fairly well. I do hope this continues. And I have found myself talking to the baby more and more, which is still kind of funny since there's not even a bump to talk to. I go back to the Dr on Monday for more blood work and another ultrasound. I'm definitely looking forward to seeing the baby again and get the reassurance, again, that the baby is still growing and developing perfectly.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Baby Names
You might wonder why I so urgently want to find a girls name. As I've said before, I'm solid on boys names. We have four names that we absolutely adore. We may narrow that down to two over the next several months or we may take all four names to the hospital with us. Bottom line... I no longer think about boys names. But until I can say the same for girls names... I cannot stop thinking about names. I wake up during the night thinking about names... I just can't stop. So I urgently want to find our top girls names, to give my brain a break!
Yesterday, my friend Linda, let me borrow a couple name books. Now I, of course, have explored many name books, but I was finally able to get a name book in Nathan's hands. And it was amazing. He actually got into it and realized what an important task it is. He threw out all kinds of names I never would have thought he liked... some good, some bad. And while I was so happy to have his serious input... it turned my short list into a very long list. I'm not sure if it was progress towards giving my brain a rest, but hopefully now we'll be able to start focusing on the names on our list.
And while some of you may know a couple of our favorite names... we'll ultimately be keeping our final picks quiet. There are very few surprises in life these days! Did I mention we will not be finding out the gender until the big birthday?!
Oh and I must pass on some wonderful suggestions I've received... ;)
1. Cora Vette (get it?!)
2. Direne (Diane+Irene: a mix between our mother's middle names... doesn't so appetizing does it?!)
3. Firby (Fred+Kirby: a mix between our father's first names... ha!)
Yesterday, my friend Linda, let me borrow a couple name books. Now I, of course, have explored many name books, but I was finally able to get a name book in Nathan's hands. And it was amazing. He actually got into it and realized what an important task it is. He threw out all kinds of names I never would have thought he liked... some good, some bad. And while I was so happy to have his serious input... it turned my short list into a very long list. I'm not sure if it was progress towards giving my brain a rest, but hopefully now we'll be able to start focusing on the names on our list.
And while some of you may know a couple of our favorite names... we'll ultimately be keeping our final picks quiet. There are very few surprises in life these days! Did I mention we will not be finding out the gender until the big birthday?!
Oh and I must pass on some wonderful suggestions I've received... ;)
1. Cora Vette (get it?!)
2. Direne (Diane+Irene: a mix between our mother's middle names... doesn't so appetizing does it?!)
3. Firby (Fred+Kirby: a mix between our father's first names... ha!)
Monday, October 12, 2009
6 Weeks 4 Days
First things first... This morning we saw our baby's heart beat! It was the most beautiful little flutter, but very strong. I didn't even have to have the Dr. point it out to me. It was tiny, but right there. It was amazing. When I got the phone call saying I was pregnant... that was incredible, but still abstract. When I was told the HCG levels were right on track... what a relief. Seeing the first ultrasound... a bit less abstract. Seeing the heartbeat... THERE'S A BABY IN THERE!!! LOL It's no longer abstract, its real! Dr. Shamma was very sweet. He gave us a real Congratulations and said "You did it, Kelly!" Ha. Of course, I was thinking... No Dr. Shamma you did it. LOL. Dr. Shamma also said what we were all thinking, "Thank you God." I am still keeping my guard up a little knowing that we are still in the miscarriage danger zone, but seeing the heart beat gives us a lot of hope and joy!
As far as a due date. My calculations based on the date of conception was June 3rd. Dr. Shamma didn't mention a due date yet, but the ultrasound gives an estimated due date based on the size. The date given by the ultrasound was also June 3rd. So I'm saying that our EDD is June 3, 2010!
And I have to take a moment to brag on Nathan. Last night I babysat a friend's baby for a couple hours. When I came home, my wonderful husband had the house clean, Harry Connick Jr playing, candles lit, and a card and gift on the table for me. I have a book Your Pregnancy Week by Week that gives Dad tips, one being "Buy your wife gifts through out her pregnancy." I read this to Nathan, teasing him... but he was a good boy and took the tip! If he keeps that up... we should have a very enjoyable pregnancy. :)
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Girl Names
Ok friends. I have a feeling I'm going to need the entire duration of pregnancy to come up with two girls names. (Remember... we are not finding out the gender... so we'll have to be prepared for either.) Let's have some fun... and let YOU give me some ideas! :)
Here are some guidelines:
1. A name that is somewhat uncommon or at least not in the top 50 or so.
2. A name that has a fairly simple and straight forward spelling and pronuciation.
3. A name that fits it with our names. {Nathan, Kelly, and _________.}
Go!
(Some of you have trouble commenting... so you can always email me and I'll add it to my blog reader suggestions! KellyMorgan2.0@gmail.com)
Here are some guidelines:
1. A name that is somewhat uncommon or at least not in the top 50 or so.
2. A name that has a fairly simple and straight forward spelling and pronuciation.
3. A name that fits it with our names. {Nathan, Kelly, and _________.}
Go!
(Some of you have trouble commenting... so you can always email me and I'll add it to my blog reader suggestions! KellyMorgan2.0@gmail.com)
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Funny story. Nathan paused the tv the other night and it stopped during a preview for a new show, specifically a little boy. The little boy was a little chubby, kind of had a scruffy voice, and was just cute. Well Nathan said something like, "ha... that is a dweeby little kid." I sat there and studied the little boy for a second. And I realized that's what our kid could look like. He had a round head, like my Dads, eyes like me, a nose like my brother, and Nathan's hair and darker eyebrows. We started laughing hysterically. It was so true. He suddenly looked less dweeby and much more adorable. Then at Target I was looking at greeting cards, and I noticed a little girl who looked a lot like me as a little girl with blonde hair and dark eyebrows... again I thought... hmm that's what my kid could look like.
So we've definitely been having fun imagining what our little Mini-Morgan will look like.
So we've definitely been having fun imagining what our little Mini-Morgan will look like.
6 Weeks and 10 Years
I think the early pregnancy fatigue is setting in. Yesterday, from the time I woke up, I was exhausted. All I wanted to do was put my head down, anywhere, and sleep. I bet I yawned two hundred times yesterday. But I didn't want to nap otherwise I wouldn't be able to fall asleep. So bedtime finally came around, I fell asleep very quickly... but it didn't last. Between having to get up to pee, the intense dreaming I had, and the pounding headache, which was border-line migraine it wasn't a very pleasant or restful night's sleep. Today... I will be napping.
*But don't think I'm complaining. Well... I'll complain about the stupid headache. Its good to start having some of these early signs of pregnancy. And while I know things can still go wrong, these little reminders are great at holding me over until my next ultrasound*
And I am 6 week today... halfway through the first trimester. And... Today is the Ten Year Anniversary of Nathan and Kelly, the couple. October, the 10th month, and the 8th day is why we were married exactly at 10:08 am. :) I can't wait to see what the next ten years with Nathan holds!!
*But don't think I'm complaining. Well... I'll complain about the stupid headache. Its good to start having some of these early signs of pregnancy. And while I know things can still go wrong, these little reminders are great at holding me over until my next ultrasound*
And I am 6 week today... halfway through the first trimester. And... Today is the Ten Year Anniversary of Nathan and Kelly, the couple. October, the 10th month, and the 8th day is why we were married exactly at 10:08 am. :) I can't wait to see what the next ten years with Nathan holds!!
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
5 Weeks and 4 Days Picture
This is the ultrasound picture from Monday. You can't really seem much of anything, but I know many of you still wanted to see it. At my next ultrasound on Monday, we should be able to see the heart beat which is just amazing if you ask me!
(Click on the picture to see it a little bigger!)
And... I mentioned before about not drinking bottled water. Well... I found out that the aluminum SIGG bottle I was using was not BPA free?! Most people including me just assumed they were BPA free. Once the company realized that this was one of the primary reasons people were using their product they created a new liner that was BPA free. They are also doing a voluntary recall, where you send your bottle in and they'll send you a code to choose a new bottle from their website for free. So I sent our two SIGG bottles off yesterday.
(Click on the picture to see it a little bigger!)
And... I mentioned before about not drinking bottled water. Well... I found out that the aluminum SIGG bottle I was using was not BPA free?! Most people including me just assumed they were BPA free. Once the company realized that this was one of the primary reasons people were using their product they created a new liner that was BPA free. They are also doing a voluntary recall, where you send your bottle in and they'll send you a code to choose a new bottle from their website for free. So I sent our two SIGG bottles off yesterday.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
5 Weeks and 5 Days
I think I can safely say I now have pregnancy symptoms. The first is the fact that my sleeping has been weird. Usually if I take a nap, I can still sleep at night. Now, wether or not I've napped, it seems like it takes me forever to fall asleep. A night or two ago, I was up until past three in the morning trying to fall asleep. Then when I do fall asleep... I wake up a million times. Nathan can tell ya... usually the second my head hits the pillow, I'm out. Another new thing is waking up during the night to go to the bathroom. I never, ever have to wake up during the night to go. It is now becoming a regular occurrence. And the last symptom so far is heartburn. Our friend Briana is visiting and staying with us, so we went out for Mexican tonight. I had the usual chips and salsa (I know chips aren't so good for baby!) a bean burrito, and some guacamole. Mexican doesn't usually bother me, but tonight... not so cool. I think I'll be passing on the Mexican for a while.
And my friend, Linda, surprised me with a little gift, the book Your Pregnancy Week By Week. I'm really enjoying reading ahead a little bit. Plus, they have actual size pictures of the baby at each week which is easier than trying to imagine it the size of a pea. I'm still feeling well and praying 'morning sickness' passes me by.
Again, I have two quick prayer requests. My great Aunt Kate (who was in her late 60s or early 70s) passed away yesterday after battling illness for a while. She seemed to pass peacefully, but my great Uncle and his family will need prayer as they try to resume life without her after spending so many years taking care of her. Also, I have a friend who has a potential job opportunity, which could be a great situation for her and her family, but also a job opportunity for me. We are praying for God's guidance and will in this matter.
And my friend, Linda, surprised me with a little gift, the book Your Pregnancy Week By Week. I'm really enjoying reading ahead a little bit. Plus, they have actual size pictures of the baby at each week which is easier than trying to imagine it the size of a pea. I'm still feeling well and praying 'morning sickness' passes me by.
Again, I have two quick prayer requests. My great Aunt Kate (who was in her late 60s or early 70s) passed away yesterday after battling illness for a while. She seemed to pass peacefully, but my great Uncle and his family will need prayer as they try to resume life without her after spending so many years taking care of her. Also, I have a friend who has a potential job opportunity, which could be a great situation for her and her family, but also a job opportunity for me. We are praying for God's guidance and will in this matter.
Monday, October 5, 2009
5 weeks and 4 days
Today's ultrasound went well. Dr. Shamma walked into the room and said, "Let's see how many baby's are in there!" Ummm... "There should only be one unless you tricked me, Dr. Shamma!" Of course, it could have split, but it didn't. Just one tiny little baby about the size of a pea. And my HCG level was at about 2400, which Nurse Lori said is great. I was also told that I am officially 5 weeks and 4 days pregnant. That means... three more days and I'll be half way through my first trimester. But right now, I am most concerned about seeing the baby's heart beat, which should happen at my next ultrasound on Monday when I'll be 6 weeks and 4 days. That will be my first sigh of relief, although I know its just the first of many pregnancy milestones. Thank you for your continued prayer.
I'd also like to ask that you remember my mom's friend Allison in your prayers. She is a fellow Harley rider in BG and has been battling ovarian cancer for the past five years. She is only in her late thirties. She will be going to Houston this week, which my understanding is for a last chance surgery. I don't know Allison, and my mom has only begun to get to know her, but she has been praying for me. This woman, who is potentially facing her own death, is speaking my name in her prayers. It's inspiring and humbling. So I ask that you remember Allison and her upcoming surgery in your prayers.
I'd also like to ask that you remember my mom's friend Allison in your prayers. She is a fellow Harley rider in BG and has been battling ovarian cancer for the past five years. She is only in her late thirties. She will be going to Houston this week, which my understanding is for a last chance surgery. I don't know Allison, and my mom has only begun to get to know her, but she has been praying for me. This woman, who is potentially facing her own death, is speaking my name in her prayers. It's inspiring and humbling. So I ask that you remember Allison and her upcoming surgery in your prayers.
Friday, October 2, 2009
HCG Levels Continue to Climb
I just got the phone call with today's blood test results and my HCG levels are over 1000. I don't remember the exact number, but she said they were great! They are supposed to double every two days which they have. What a relief. I'll be very happy to get through the first trimester and out of the miscarriage danger zone. And my first ultrasound to see the Mini-Morgan will be on Monday!! I'll tell you what... I like this whole... getting a baby update every few days. Still not feeling pregnant makes me go... "Are ya still doing ok in there little baby??"
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