Baby, I Love Being Pregnant

This afternoon I spent some time working on my Pregnancy Journal. The best thing about this journal, is that it forces me to stop and reflect (and write it down so I'll always remember this time.)

I think we have already established I love being pregnant. In the past couple weeks I've begun to have sharp low back pain. And its becoming more persistent, but while its uncomfortable... its a physical reminder of the miraculous thing happening in my body. I know its easy to say now because so far this pregnancy has been delightful. But I hope to maintain this attitude.

I knew I was born and created to be a mother, to love and nurture. That's part of why my infertility was so difficult. The one thing I was born to do, and I can't. But now that I am pregnant, I find myself hurting even more for women who have yet to experience this. Maybe that is also why I find every little good or bad aspect of pregnancy to be simply amazing. Every woman, if she desires, should feel this.

Not only did God create me, the person, to do this... but He created my body (all women's bodies of course) for this. I've never felt stronger, healthier, or more beautiful. I believe in my body. I know that probably sounds so silly. But its true. I have this wonderful new bond with my own physical self. I know I still have 20 weeks left, but I have made it through the first 20 weeks without so much as a cold. And no, I did not get the regular flu shot or the H1N1 flu shot. I'm trusting this body that God created so perfectly to protect me and my Baby. And I believe this is an attitude I will carry with my through the labor and birth of my Baby. Now I am realistic in knowing that things still happen, complications arise. But overall, I have a great trust and admiration for our bodies and their natural ability to do amazing things like create life.

I'm also finding that I prefer more fitted tops. I thought I'd prefer more loose and flowing tops... but I love the shirts that hug my belly. I was grocery shopping in the frozen vegetable section and caught a glimpse of my profile... and I saw this beautiful baby bump between myself and the cart... and it made me smile. And I love that every where I go... my Baby is right there with me... in the safest place it'll ever be.

I cannot wait to hold my baby, to kiss my baby, to see my baby's face. But for now... I love knowing it is safe and protected from the world. I wish Baby could stay safe and protected forever, but I know the day will eventually come (in about 20 weeks) when they will have to face the world.

And on a side note... I think we have finally landed on a name! My brain can finally stop the constant name game.