Sleep... What's that??

Last night was yet another long night. I decided to call Milo's pediatrician this morning. I know every new parent deals with sleep issues at some point, but I wanted to see if they had any other advice or thoughts about what's going on with Milo. First of all... here's what's going on.

*He's waking up every 45 min-1 1/2 hour.
*He goes to sleep easily and seems comfortable in his crib.
*When he does wake up... its instant screaming with his arms flailing.
*He's fine during the day and naps well.
*We've tried several different sleeping arrangements including back to cosleeping and Milo on his tummy (And yes he is a wonderful roller these days... so tummy sleeping is fine.)
*When he does wake up... sometimes I can put his pacifier in and he'll fall back asleep... sometimes I can reposition him and he'll fall back asleep... when I do pick him up, he instantly falls right back asleep. Nathan tried to get him back to sleep early last night and he just stayed so upset... the minute I held him he went right back to sleep.
*No fever, no abnormal congestion, no tugging on the ears, nothing to indicate sickness or teething.

I did not know night mares or night terrors started this young, but our pediatrician said this is actually about the time they can start. They told me just to go in and comfort him (ideally without picking him up) until he falls back asleep. {I have been doing just that for the past week or so... I've lost track of how long he's been doing this.} Then if after a couple more nights he's still doing this... I'm supposed to call them back.

I almost cried when they said he possibly could be having bad dreams. What is my sweet, happy, loving baby having bad dreams about? Having his nose suctioned? Being put in his car seat? Milo's life has been pretty awesome. Those are the only things we do that upset him. If hasn't experienced anything else in his life that is scary... how would his mind dream that? Do you know what I'm saying?

Its definitely wearing on me. I'm really tired. Nathan came home for lunch and made me feel better. Its hard for him, too because there's little he can do except let me nap on the weekends. I know all of you parents out there already know this too well... but its so hard when there's a problem and you don't know how to fix it. You feel helpless. Although... I need to remember this problem is very very tiny. There are other parents with bigger, much scarier problems that they don't know how to fix. I'm grateful that this is the extent of our 'problems.' But when you're sleep deprived... it just seems like it'll never end.

And on top of already being tired... the PT today made a comment in passing that Milo's feeding issues "might just be who he is." Not good enough. I don't think she was giving up. We're going to see her one more time because we go to the next plan... I'm not sure what the next plan is but we'll find out Friday. But... I'm not ready to give up yet. As I've said before though... we'll be fine as long as he teeth don't come in yet. I'm praying Milo is a late teether. That's really what's going to dictate how much longer we can nurse.