Finding Focus

Do you every doubt God? Not doubt God's existence. I've seen God work too many times to doubt his existence or that He is GOD. Maybe forget is more of the word I am looking for, forget that He is in control. Of course. I know we all do that. Or at least, I think we all do as some time or another. I get caught up in regret. I regret not making better use of my time, pre Milo, in terms of education. We regret Nathan didn't choose a career that made lots of money. So on and so forth.

But then, God gives me that moment of clarity. Where He reminds me, that back in 2003, he put WKU on our radar through my college advisor. Even further back, he reminds me that He gave Nathan a true talent. He orchestrated a lot of events and opportunities for Nathan. God wouldn't do that if He didn't have a plan, a plan that would support his family. And same thing with me. I do wish had made better use of my time in college, BUT I also know that the He put this passion for supporting new mom's in my heart. And I would not have known about this calling until I went through the experience I did.

I, briefly, stopped trusting that God will use me to support new mom's in a way that blesses women, but also contributes to providing for our family. Oh that moment of clarity is so sweet. Raising my family is job number one in my life. A job, that doesn't come with financial reward, but instead with financial sacrifice. But I am doing so in obedience of God, because that is what He is laid on my heart, heavily long before Milo was here. And for that, I know God will provide for our family. Another great thing about my second passion, breastfeeding, that is so great is that its a job that I can do while being a WAHM (work at home mom.)

So while I spent the majority of today having a little pity party, God came through to remind me that He is in control, and to trust in Him. I will do just that.