Day Thirteen... Again

I was emailing with my friend Bridget just now, and it got me thinking about seeing the follicles today. I understand that the follicles hold the microscopic eggs, and that those microscopic eggs are just eggs... and will never become anything else until they're fertilized. But there was something very special and exciting about seeing those follicles today. Each follicle held an egg; each follicle represented a future life. I sat there looking at each little black hole on the ultrasound and I thought... that one could become my baby. A few of those will hopefully become my babies over the years. I think today was the first time that this whole process really felt real or that a baby might actually result from this. Its kind of scary, because the more real and connected I become... the more difficult it will be if it fails.