"I know I'm still in the middle of this process, but it amazes me how different it is from my expectations. I read so much about how painful, how crazy I'd become, etc. And yet, I have not experienced so much as a minor mood swing. I've felt happy and positive and hopeful. This week I went to Barnes and Noble and picked up a book I read previously about IVF... no comparison. It just shows how different everyone's bodies are and how differently they react. That as well as the fact that everyone's IVF is different. We all have different drug regimens, different needles, different shot locations, different procedures. I think a lot of the books and articles out there like to harp on the worst case scenarios and leave out the positive IVF experiences that many people do have. So on the record... even if this IVF attempt fails... I'm saying that for me, IVF has been a positive experience."
I kind of chuckled reading back on that. Do I still think that this experience has been positive? Well let me first say that I still things its super important to remember that every woman's IVF is very different. And I've since had mood swings, pain, and a worst case scenario. So in a sense... maybe it is important to remember or expect the worst or maybe be prepared for the worst then be pleasantly surprised when it is not as bad. I think I may have spoke a bit too soon. But easy... IVF is not... unpleasant at times... yes... scary... yes. I'll get back to you on the positive aspect. I know that if we do end up with a baby... it will be worth every ounce of pain... but this is definitely a process (the stimming and egg retrieval) I will only subject my body to once. We will still make future attempts with our frozen embryos, but that is simply the transfer part.
Just a thought.
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