There is SO much I want to say right now. But I can't, not yet anyhow. I want to blog about that Garth Brooks song that says, "Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers." But I think I'll go with this.
God must feel like he is dealing with toddlers on a regular basis. We think we are so wise and mature. But then something happens where you realize that to God... you're as simple as a toddler. Its like if you go to a fantastic children's concert with all kinds of wonderful songs and colors and movement. But you arrive twenty minutes too early. You keep trying to tell the child... 'Just wait... you're going to love it!' But they don't believe you. They lose patients and end up throwing a tantrum... and the whole thing is ruined. Or when you go to the zoo. You know how exciting it'll be if you just wait until one of the gorillas decides to get up and put on a show for the crowd. But that toddler... just doesn't understand. They don't know what they are missing. Instead they throw a tantrum and demand to be moved on to the next thing.
I can't really speak for anyone but myself... but I am like that with God. He might have something really wonderful and exciting in store, but I lose patients and throw tantrums and try to demand things be done my way. Thankfully God doesn't give in to toddler behavior as easily as we might. He loves us enough to sit through our tantrums so that we may see and experience the wonderful He has in store for us.
That is what God has shown me today.
And as for a baby update... Today's appointment with my midwife went well. Baby and I are both continuing to do well. I am still measuring exactly 32 weeks. I did have a six pound weight gain. I don't know. Maybe it was all the sweets at my shower. Maybe it was the delicious coffee cake I made for Nathan's birthday. Maybe it was the salt from the Easter ham. Maybe the baby just had a growth spurt. I don't know. But my midwife made me feel better by telling me to look at it as 4lb weight gain over 6 weeks since I lost 2 lbs the week before. I'm just going to continue to do my best with eating healthy and exercising, and not try to figure out exactly where those six pounds came from.
Hey-- Dont beat yourself up over any weight gain!!! I know you are enjoying your pregnancy but trust me-- as soon as that baby is out you won't care how much weight you did or did not gain--- Please please please dont focus on it at all!!! Especially now-- on average women gain a pound a week at the point you are at-- so remember that too!!!
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