I think anyone taking on a new position is going to have a little anxiety and maybe some self doubt. Since Nathan was first offered the photo editor job, he's gone through a lot of those emotions. We know there will be certain challenges with this position, and he has the extra pressure of maintaining a national award winning photo department. Anyway, he was supposed to have a meeting with the editor on Tuesday, but it ended up being pushed back to Friday. That meant Nathan had all week long to worry about it. I won't/can't really get into the specifics, but all of his fears were eased after a great meeting. He called me afterwards feeling so positive and encouraged. I cannot tell you what a blessing that was. He was finally able to take a deep breath and lose some of the anxiety. Which of course allowed me to take a deep breath and lose some of the anxiety.
I'm usually pretty good about staying strong and being Nathan's rock when he needs me. I usually can give him the encouragement and support he needs when things get stressful. However, I had a hard time doing that once this week. I even said something along the lines of, I want to be your rock, but I can't. That was difficult. But while we had one day of shared stress and worry it was short lived when we refocused and realized no matter what... its all going to be OK. And of course the worry was based on absolutely nothing. In fact, I'm pretty sure it was the devil planting the seed of doubt. When God does something so wonderful and in such perfect timing... of course the devil is going to try to step in. But once we refocused on trusting God... those feelings were lifted. So thank you for your prayers.
Did I mention he'll have regular day time working hours, M-F. This was a 2-10 week... and his one day weekend... but you know what?! I don't mind... because I know it'll be one of his last. In the almost six years we've been married, we've never experienced regular work hours. (I know there will be times where he may have to work an evening or weekend a time or two... but I can handle that!) While he was in school... if he wasn't in class or working... he was shooting or working on school work. I was so worried about how that schedule would work having a baby. But now... we'll finally get to have regular dinners together, go to bed together, sleep in on Saturday mornings together (OH WAIT... maybe for a couple weeks), and we'll get to have a family bedtime routine once the baby's here. I just can't tell you what an answered prayer this change is for our family.
OK... It's 2:30 on a Saturday and I am still in my pjs. I really need to get a move on it!
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