PET Scan is back on

The PET scan is back on. We considered a few other options, but after discussing things with Nathan, my parents, and the doctor's office, we've decided this is really the necessary route at this point. So Mom will fly up on Tuesday to help care for Milo during and after my scan on Wed. I still have some questions, but I think this is just what needs to be done at this point. I think I will have enough milk stored by then. And I know Nathan and my mom will take great care of Milo. I'm not worried about him eating or during the day. But I'm not sure how the evening will go. I usually nurse Milo for about an hour to get him to sleep. {I know that's a bad habit, but I don't care. What if I am sick and have to stop nursing altogether. I am learning to cherish the closeness with Milo right now. We can break bad habits later.} BUT I'm not sure how mom and Nathan will get him to sleep. I guess he will eventually crash, but I don't want it to be stressful on anyone, especially Milo. Maybe he'll end up sleeping in the swing. I just need to not worry. And if they have to stay up all night with him... so be it. Like I said... I know they'll take good care of him. Its just going to be so hard to be away from him for that long. I still have some questions like how quarantined do I need to be? Can I even stay in a hotel???

I'll end the post with this:

Nathan found this while going through some old documents on the computer. I wrote this poem on August 30th 2007. I know its not the greatest poem, but it was neat to find this.

My child. I dream.
I wonder in silence.
Your smell. Your skin.
What you will someday become.

My child. Hours spent.
Imagining what I will feel.
When I see you. When I hold you.
When we meet.

My child. I wonder.
Who you will be.
Pink ribbons. Muddy Jeans.
A blessing each.

My child. I love you.
I am your Mom.
Perfect. Beautiful.
I love you today and forever.

Nathan also found a five year timeline I made around the same time. And I included Milo's birthday by name... although at that time I anticipated that being July 2008! So 'Milo' was truly the baby I had been waiting for.